IAmAdrianna

Rubs me the wrong fucking way. He is sitting there joking around about having the girl run him over. And he is just making stupid comments about wanting to die & whatever... Do you wake up everyday and feel like a useless, helpless, hopeless??? You legit say you go to parties which means you have time & friends. Maybe that means you have financial security, a solid and safe roof over your head,and your rent is clearly managable because you are planning to buy a house? Don't joke about wanting to die when some of us struggle and fight everyday to find the Strength & will to keep waking up . . .

So I Started a new job. Usually it is fairly easy to make conversation & be at least somewhat friendly... This has been different. Burned out people who are miserable & are Allowed to basically do Whatever whenever. No one has been Unhelpful,But people definitely do not want to play as a team. Insiders think drivers are lazy. Insiders see them sitting & doing nothing in between deliveries. While I am alone answering phones, taking orders & boxing them up.  But everytime I got a chance to learn to make, I had to do something else. Because everyone is there for themselves.  Maybe I will try for assistant manager ...

Buy a duplex and basically have my tennent pay the Mortgage, I could maybe get myself into a better financial situation. I could feel safer and hey maybe my tenant will be a friend and I would actually want to do things with people.....

They say money doesn't buy happiness. But I would guess "they" never had to struggle so "they" were just spoiled and didn't appreciate anything in the first place. Money for sure would buy me happiness, safety and security.  I could buy a newer car, with less problems that I don't have to keep dumping money into. I could move to a quiet safe area where I could maintain my own garden of herbs, fruits and veggies. I could have so much security in knowing my car isn't going to fall apart and my home is safe. And then on top of that I could get my teeth fixed. Like 100% fixed.  My health too.  But instead I hardly get paid, my car is unreliable so I can't really get another job and I feel horrible not being able to make enough money....