This is for you.
See things from my eyes, how the world is always turned against me.
These types of things would only happen to me.
Everyone else gets to be happy. They post lame status's, take all these photos together.
And the boyfriends look at their girlfriends like royalty, taking candid photos and posting cute vague status's.
And here we are.
I want to be the apple of your eye, the dot to your i, the cross to your t. I'm so jealous that other people get that kind of attention. I just want to feel special every once and awhile.
I enjoy just sitting and enjoying content with people. Whether a show or a movie, I like being around other people for it.
I want to move out, I want to live on my own/ with roommates. I want to decorate our bedroom, our bathroom, our kitchen. I want to make a life of our own. We could have our own game or movie nights, and they would be amazing.
Will I ever be as special as your music?
Will I ever be loved like before?
Am I asking too much for you to cuddle at night?
For you to watch movies or play games with me?
To plan and cook dinner?
To just remind me that you love me, and that you're thinking of me?
What don't I have that you want from others? Are you that dead inside that you just don't care anymore? Or do you need to talk to someone too? Because no one is safe from sadness. I want to know things, I want you to talk to me. You do so many things that are so trendy and I don't understand why. You need so much validation from other people because why? Am I not good enough?
And its all my fault. I pushed you away and made shitty choices because I was younger and stupid. I wasn't ready for this to be it.
But life is so short. Life is so short.
All I do at work is listen to music and podcasts and its so hard to not let my brain wander.
I'm constantly thinking of a thousand different things at once because that's the easiest way to focus. But its so hard to not think about myself, my life, the world around me and our relationship.
I think, what if he's talking to someone else again?
Why am I not enough?
He wanted me to treat him more like a boyfriend, so I have but it seems like he doesn't care.
I try to talk and I'm met with silence.
We can never go any where together, you always have to invite everyone you know. And then I get ignored and no one talks to me and forgets that I'm there.
I just want you to say I love you.
I want you to tell me it's going to be okay.
I want you to tell me that you won't give up on me and you want to actually try to get me healthy again.
That you will take advice and maybe do some of your own research on how to best help me learn to be happy again.
If everyone else deserves to be happy in this shitty world, so do we.
See things from my eyes, how the world is always turned against me.
These types of things would only happen to me.
Everyone else gets to be happy. They post lame status's, take all these photos together.
And the boyfriends look at their girlfriends like royalty, taking candid photos and posting cute vague status's.
And here we are.
I want to be the apple of your eye, the dot to your i, the cross to your t. I'm so jealous that other people get that kind of attention. I just want to feel special every once and awhile.
I enjoy just sitting and enjoying content with people. Whether a show or a movie, I like being around other people for it.
I want to move out, I want to live on my own/ with roommates. I want to decorate our bedroom, our bathroom, our kitchen. I want to make a life of our own. We could have our own game or movie nights, and they would be amazing.
Will I ever be as special as your music?
Will I ever be loved like before?
Am I asking too much for you to cuddle at night?
For you to watch movies or play games with me?
To plan and cook dinner?
To just remind me that you love me, and that you're thinking of me?
What don't I have that you want from others? Are you that dead inside that you just don't care anymore? Or do you need to talk to someone too? Because no one is safe from sadness. I want to know things, I want you to talk to me. You do so many things that are so trendy and I don't understand why. You need so much validation from other people because why? Am I not good enough?
And its all my fault. I pushed you away and made shitty choices because I was younger and stupid. I wasn't ready for this to be it.
But life is so short. Life is so short.
All I do at work is listen to music and podcasts and its so hard to not let my brain wander.
I'm constantly thinking of a thousand different things at once because that's the easiest way to focus. But its so hard to not think about myself, my life, the world around me and our relationship.
I think, what if he's talking to someone else again?
Why am I not enough?
He wanted me to treat him more like a boyfriend, so I have but it seems like he doesn't care.
I try to talk and I'm met with silence.
We can never go any where together, you always have to invite everyone you know. And then I get ignored and no one talks to me and forgets that I'm there.
I just want you to say I love you.
I want you to tell me it's going to be okay.
I want you to tell me that you won't give up on me and you want to actually try to get me healthy again.
That you will take advice and maybe do some of your own research on how to best help me learn to be happy again.
If everyone else deserves to be happy in this shitty world, so do we.
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