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Auto Pilot.

I feel like I'm on some sort of auto pilot.
Driving to work this morning I felt like a damn zombie.
Not like I went to bed any later than normal.

But just like trapped in a loop that I can't get out of.
I'm just so bored and it sucks.

I don't wanna wake up so early and stay at work until whenever I can escape. I want to sleep sometimes so I can go do things at night and not be boring.
But at the same time my job is just so boring that I feel like I"m going to fall asleep while doing it.
Even if I have music, audiobooks or podcasts.

I still am always on the verge of just falling asleep.
Which in itself is a miracle because I sleep with earplugs in.
I'm just so sick of the monotony of this everyday struggle to prove myself to people who don't give a shit about me.
The saga continues..

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