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Coming to terms with my lack of self esteem.

I had a really crummy dream this morning.
It made me realize something.
I really don't like myself.
I'm weak, mentally and physically.
I am chubby and unhealthy looking.
I go to the gym and get no results and then I skipped the gym the past 2 weeks. I feel so crummy about it.
I'm always going to have dark and veiny under eyes that make me look like I have been vomiting for hours.
I'm always going to have frizzy shitty hair.
I'm never going to fit in any clothing.
I may look okay to myself in photos. But beauty is in the eye of the beholder. And I feel like that isn't me for anyone.
I seek so much approval from people because I think it always looks bad.
Or I always just feel my choice is the wrong choice.
I don't feel like I'll ever be enough.
Ever.

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  1. JaneAugust 14, 2017 at 11:31 PM

    i personally think you are beautiful, kind, intelligent, insightful, etc.

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