I had such a crap day.

I work so hard and I feel like it goes so under appreciated.
And it isn't just me. I see all the people around me get used and abused and it isn't fair.
I need health insurance.
I need money.
But at what cost to me?
I seriously contemplate suicide every time I go to work.
But this is the most money I have ever made at a job. And I have worked a lot of places....
It baffles me why people have stayed this long or if maybe they like feeling like they aren't good enough.
Or maybe they are just really coming down on me.
Maybe they think that I have an extra set of hands and eyes.
But they don't try to fix anything.
They just overwork people and make them hate themselves...
I'm so sick of being so miserable and blaming myself when I can't do something or when I can't get something done.
But I have to make money and be able to survive.
But I'm not sure if I can survive this.