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I had a dream the other night that the boy left me for someone I'm going to see tonight. And I'm just all fucked up.
I don't know what to feel.
I know it was only a dream.
I know it wasn't real.
But is it possible?
Unfortunately...
My sister got engaged and here I am, hanging on a thread.
Feeling like I will never be enough.
Feeling like I will never be special.
The anxiety is so real right now.
I also know that I shouldn't drink.
But I'm shitty and I need to fit in.
What trash...
I am just at a loss and I don't know what to do.
If anyone has any suggestions for a phsychiatrist, drop them in a comment, or HERE. I need help because I'm falling apart and I feel like I'm behind the wheel of a car that has no clue or care where it's going.
I just want to get out of this car into the driver seat, or get in with someone who will keep me safe.

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