All I can do is my best....

I can't try anymore than I already am.
I could be like one of the others and "do something" about it.
But I will sit here and take it.
They say "Good things come to those who wait"...
Tick. Tock.
I have done my waiting. All these crummy jobs, all these places and people who don't like me  because I'm not afraid to speak up about peoples stupidity and laziness.
And yeah I get that. Some people don't know how to handle the honest truth. And that's fine I guess.
But I am trying my hardest, doing everything I can every day and for what?
I can't go to the gym I pay for because I'm always here.
I can't make enough money to not worry about my car not passing inspection.
I can't make enough money to just buy a new car.
I can't make enough money to live on my own.
And I know I never will.
Do I really deserve more?
I feel selfish saying yes.
I feel so horrible saying I do deserve more because I know there are other people doing so much as well and they are not being paid either.
I'm just having such a hard time trying to prove myself to people who don't want to let me bloom.
People that don't see a future for me.
How the hell am I supposed to see a future for myself, when no one around me does.
Not the boy, not my family, not my employer.
How the fuck am I supposed to have a life, a future when no one believes in me.
No one believes that I work hard and that I try as hard as I can.
When will it be enough?
I'm sick of never being enough for anyone...