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I couldn't have picked a worse time.

Picking the end of September/ beginning of October was a damn mistake to go to Florida.
I figured Halloween, it will still be warm, less kids because school basically just started.
But low an behold I forgot mother nature wants to punish the world for treating her poorly.
The boy and I have literally spent thousands of dollars on this trip. This is the most expensive thing I have ever done.
And it is going to be RUINED by a hurricane.
And I know I'm being selfish because all of the people there.
I have loads of Aunts and cousins down there so I feel for them. But at the same time they are pretty used to hurricanes there.
Irma is now a cat 5.
What if it DESTROYS Disney and Universal?
What if the next one happens so we can't fly home?
Why have we destroyed the planet so much that now it is basically seeking revenge on us.
I don't know what I'm going to do if I can't go on this trip.
This is the only highlight I have.
This is feels like the only thing that has kept me here this past few months.
Knowing how much we have spent and how great of an experience it could be.
And it has so much potential to crash and burn around me.
And while I am aware of other peoples suffering, and having to evacuate I am being selfish.
Because right now, this is my world and with out me, nothing matters to me because I won't be me you know?
My world is falling down all around me again. And even after having a rough week last week and then having a spectacular weekend, I'm back down below where no one else should go.
PLEASE mother nature, please earth, please life don't do this to me. Keep everyone safe from harm. Keep us all safe.
And please, make sure my trip happens....
I really fucking need this.

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