Also...

If I complain about the boy playing guitar he gets all mad.
But I literally cannot stand the sound of you playing the wrong notes and trying to learn stuff.
It's like when the boy gets annoyed when I don't listen to a whole song. But worse.
But you literally had a half hour yesterday, all day Saturday and Sunday and probably this Saturday and Sunday as well. And I'll probably be home everyday.
Because heaven forbid you could at least sit and watch TV with me.
I fucked up and I know it.
I never really appreciated the leg rubs or the cuddles.
Now I'm just always alone finding any bit of solace in my cell phone.
Because like literally everyone else in my life doesn't give a shit about me why should I bother.,
It must be a crime to ask you to put head phones on.
Or like play a whole song instead of you just playing the same part over and over again one note off every time.
I remember when I used to like playing. Then like most things it became a chore
My fingers and wrists hurt to much.
And what did playing get me?
Nothing.
Never would have made it either because it's all in who you know.
And that where the boy and I have a massive disconnect.
And it really sucks.
But I can't help it.
It is just so annoying.
So fucking annoying.
Say it with me "HEAD PHONES".