I have a lot of trouble relating to things because I have never had the experience.
I don't do things, go places or have people.
I don't have like catastrophic deaths or people I really love.
I never was allowed to make bonds like that as a kid.
My childhood best friend?
She put me down and basically told me I wasn't good enough because I was younger than her. Then one birthday party my mom put her video camera down and in that video we saw her take my game boy and put it in her purse. So what a good best friend. All other friends literally just forgot I existed just simply because I couldn't go any where.
Any deaths I have have been people I knew in their "decrepit" stage so I feel like I wasn't as effected by it.
But because of that I feel like I'm so emotionally detached from life, and more attached to fake characters or just not real situations and those bug me.
But maybe that's why I'm so distant.
I just don't understand.
I don't do things, go places or have people.
I don't have like catastrophic deaths or people I really love.
I never was allowed to make bonds like that as a kid.
My childhood best friend?
She put me down and basically told me I wasn't good enough because I was younger than her. Then one birthday party my mom put her video camera down and in that video we saw her take my game boy and put it in her purse. So what a good best friend. All other friends literally just forgot I existed just simply because I couldn't go any where.
Any deaths I have have been people I knew in their "decrepit" stage so I feel like I wasn't as effected by it.
But because of that I feel like I'm so emotionally detached from life, and more attached to fake characters or just not real situations and those bug me.
But maybe that's why I'm so distant.
I just don't understand.
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