Everyday....

I feel like I am doing the same things.
Going through the same motions.
I can't get out.
I'm trapped.
I do things because other people ask me to because that is "progress".
But I just want to come home and go to bed.
I'm just so tired.
I am so bored.
I don't want to keep working this job that is so unfulfilling and completely makes me forever in turmoil if I am just being a baby and should just get over it and deal with it or if I just want to walk through the warehouse, tell everyone I think they are shitty and leave.
I feel so forced in everything I am doing.
And I am genuinely trying.
I am telling myself this is good for me.
I am telling myself to have fun and stay positive.
But I feel like honestly?
Nothing is really changing.

My dreams are so active they keep me awake at night.
I get home and I'm exhausted and want to sleep.
In the mornings at work I want to dance and coreograph but when I get home I am uninspired and tired.
I want to be involved and see my friends.
But if I have to drive? I am all set with that....

I'm just trapped.