Here is a thing.

Have I given up?
Is it all to much.
I can't stand this feeling
of being all alone.

I ask a question
and it turns some heads
I never get my answer
Then I'm left hanging

I toss and turn at night
because it's all too much
my head is spinning and
I cannot catch my breath

I look at myself
I hate what I see
No matter what you tell me
I really hate this feeling.

I don't care what others think
I'm my own worst critic
How can you have confidence
but still hate yourself.

A constant battle,
An endless war
This conflict inside me
Is just a fucking mess.

Am I overreacting?
Did I think too much?
Am I playing games?
Am I really like this?
Will I ever be okay?

I know I'm wrong,
but it feels so right.
I am all alone
I don't know what I'd like.

An endless battle,
A constant War
Eating up inside me
Will I ever find something more?