I don't have much time for anything these days. I feel like I am just filling my time up so I won't be bored. I don't want to keep getting left alone with my own head. I feel so emotionally exhausted and I don't know anymore. I just want to sleep until it gets warm out. So then I can continue to figure out what the fuck to do with myself and my life. To figure out why all these broken people find me. Why I dream about places I've never seen. To figure out no matter where I go and what I do, I will always be taken advantage of. But instead, I will continue to wait and try to fill my time with nonsense so I don't have to think about anything important.