It's amazing how blissfully unaware people are.

Here I am every day struggling to do my best and then everyone just exists and doesn't even have to think.
I am sick of thinking.
It doesn't get me anywhere.
It just gets me 20 days of waiting to find out if I am getting a position switch.
Thinking gets me struggling to to look for a new apartment.
Struggling to get anywhere or do anything.
I can't even remember where I put my god damn headphones yesterday after coming from my walk and going right to rehearsal.
Rehearsal for people who should have practiced some of this previous to this night because these people only live together...
But its fine, another night of eating dinner at 8:30 so I wake up UNGODLY hungry in the morning and then drink this shitty disappointing excuse for coffee at work. 
Tonight we are going to look at an apartment that now has 2 showings. I am hoping that this one is it.
If not the next one. But nothing else is popping up.
Not even the guy I emailed 3 times, like dude, you would have gotten your 1850 last month but here you are still looking. 
I'm just all over the place and I wish I had my head phones.