Breadwinner.

The boy works with someone whose S.O makes a shit ton of money.
Like the house, the kid, the cars the vacations all because of her.
I have tried to work my way up, doing all different things everywhere to try to make money.
I am trying to be this person. I'm going to have to make even more sacrifices including probably limiting or eliminating my dog walks.
It has been like my mini therapy that keeps me busy.
Sure, it does make me money. But if my "career" is my focus I cannot do both.
How will I be able to support myself and someone else.
How will I ever be able to afford a house, pay off my car, live my life.
I already feel like the world is on my weak little shoulders. Now I feel like my knees are giving out because I don't have the strength to keep holding everyone else up or else I will fall too....

But there is no US. It is just you or me.
And lately I have been getting sharp random pains all over my legs. Like I am being stuck with a pin. So that's cool.