They never were.
And I am having a hard time thinking they ever will be.
I don't have any time in my life for anything.
It's work, dogs and Rocky.
I don't have time, will or desire for anything else anymore.
I'm just so empty.
I want to have time but I just don't.
I want to be happy but I feel like that is unattainable.
I want things to stop fluctuating.
Yesterday morning a coworker got me this DOPE sweater because she said I "Needed a Lift".
And I sat there thinking I need to really appreciate the people around me who care about me.
But then I got home and the one person that I just wanted to veg out with for a second was too busy for me.
It is so hard when you want to be a normal cliche couple but you are both rotten and jaded so nothing is sacred.
So many people challenge us and our relationship because I have a few different ideas.
I don't get it.
I never did.
But all I want is to be held and told that I am loved because after a long day of trying to make a career at a place that is so unaware it makes me sick.
I am challenged and questioned every day and insulted just for existing.
It's fucking hard when you feel like you are wasting your life away trying to achieve things that you never wanted to achieve in the first place.
And I am having a hard time thinking they ever will be.
I don't have any time in my life for anything.
It's work, dogs and Rocky.
I don't have time, will or desire for anything else anymore.
I'm just so empty.
I want to have time but I just don't.
I want to be happy but I feel like that is unattainable.
I want things to stop fluctuating.
Yesterday morning a coworker got me this DOPE sweater because she said I "Needed a Lift".
And I sat there thinking I need to really appreciate the people around me who care about me.
But then I got home and the one person that I just wanted to veg out with for a second was too busy for me.
It is so hard when you want to be a normal cliche couple but you are both rotten and jaded so nothing is sacred.
So many people challenge us and our relationship because I have a few different ideas.
I don't get it.
I never did.
But all I want is to be held and told that I am loved because after a long day of trying to make a career at a place that is so unaware it makes me sick.
I am challenged and questioned every day and insulted just for existing.
It's fucking hard when you feel like you are wasting your life away trying to achieve things that you never wanted to achieve in the first place.
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