Alone

I was alone for the passed 4 years.
Who was I kidding. Everything felt like a struggle and when we were there, you certainly didn't have fun.
That is all I have wanted is a partner in crime.
And now, I am free, outta jail.
And I can't find one damn person who will join me.
Everyone is so scared to commit or make any decisions about life.
Meanwhile it took me 2 years to decide what stickers to put on my car...
Its just hard when the past 3 years I looked around every New Years to everyone smiling, laughing, hugging, kissing, and then there was me sipping my drink or champagne. That fucking feels so bad.
All I want is love. Love is a many splendored thing, love lifts us up where we belong, all you need is love.
I spent so long with someone who would never love me.
I hate dating.
I get attached and then dropped.
I know I am not the only one going through things but at least go through it with someone else.
I'm sick of being alone all the time. I just want a partner in crime.
Everyone else gets one, why don't I?
What the hell am I doing wrong?