And now I am with someone who hasn't been in serious relationships. And I feel this weird pressure to be independent because I don't want to be needy. But at the same time I feel like this person entered my life and my only regret is not meeting him sooner. But I am needy damnit. Sometimes I really like the clingyness. And maybe that's from feeling like I was dead all those years. But I already want to share every aspect of my life with this person but fear I will come on too strong. And I really don't want to lose someone as incredible as this Plus Everett heckin loves him so like... How could I not feel like I want to spend every moment with him?