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STUCK

I feel like I can't step forward ever. Like my feet are glued in mud. A rope is wrapped around my wasit and I am being pulled back. Yoink. I try to be patient, understanding and empathetic with everyone. But I cannot keep being a punching bag. 

Dysphoric.

I have always had the battle until this year about demanding that people knew I was a "girl", but an androgynous one. But this past year I discovered there is much more to that.  As I came out as Agender and people shifted my pronous from she to they I felt great. But I have wanted to do drag. And this is where I get confused. I feel like I already look like a "woman" so I can't go queen. But on the other hand I hate beards and facial hair and I feel like that is the only way to be a king, and I don't want to have facial hair. I feel like I cannot be both because I look too much like a "female" even if I don't feel that way.  I know a bit of it has to do with my hair being the length that it is.  But then if I cut it, I feel like I can only be masc all the time. And I just want to confuse people is all.   And I want to be able to do the same for drag but I just don't know how to even it all out. I wish that I never grew breasts.  They have ...