Dysphoric.

I have always had the battle until this year about demanding that people knew I was a "girl", but an androgynous one.
But this past year I discovered there is much more to that. 
As I came out as Agender and people shifted my pronous from she to they I felt great.
But I have wanted to do drag.
And this is where I get confused.
I feel like I already look like a "woman" so I can't go queen.
But on the other hand I hate beards and facial hair and I feel like that is the only way to be a king, and I don't want to have facial hair.
I feel like I cannot be both because I look too much like a "female" even if I don't feel that way. 
I know a bit of it has to do with my hair being the length that it is. 
But then if I cut it, I feel like I can only be masc all the time.

And I just want to confuse people is all.  
And I want to be able to do the same for drag but I just don't know how to even it all out.

I wish that I never grew breasts. 
They have been nothing but unnecissary and unwanted attention getters that legitimately only cause me annoyance and for people to obsess over. I think it would be easier to pass if I wasn't trying to hide melons. (oh spicy, also feeling dislexic because I swear I wrote lemons)