When you knew there was not steam left. Choo Choo. Regrets? Or being lost and scared. I guess I learned a lot from being kicked down in the dirt. Maybe I'm too cold. But for the last time. I deserve so much more than this. And I have spent so god damn long trying to convince myself other wise. And it is so hard because I feel like every day is such a challenge. The universe is testing me, "Are you sure you still want to live bitch?" And the answer is yes. I spent so long planning and dreaming of a life that was never real. Just like all the weird dreams I have, just more false memories. But now it is time to make new ones. Oh man do I want to live. And I really want to live. I don't want to hide or beg or feel like I don't deserve anything. I have been resilient so far. My struggle is people. People are too much or too little. I spent so much time with one person who had little to no energy. As someone who attracts energy and people it is just something ...