IAmAdrianna

So quickly. But also so slowly.  I feel like I have too much time and not enough time all at the same time.  I spend all my days just waiting.  Waiting for something to happen. Waiting for a show, a movie. Waiting for something to load. Waiting for a package.  All I feel like I do is wait. And then as soon as it gets here, it's all over.  The excitement, the intrigue is all over.  Then I am just left. Waiting.  Today I am going to be waiting to walk Nellie, where she will drag me through the snow at a whopping 2 MPH because she is older than dirt.  Then I am taking my mom to BJ's and I am not excited.  But then tomorrow, I have nothing to do.  Just a Nellie walk at night like usual.  So that is gonna be nice.  Maybe....

While the only thing we have done is replace one set of polititions with another, I hope that this is the start of a new era. Where Nazi's, facisist and honestly these narrow minded people grow up and out of everyone's lives.  Personally I think all polititions are liars.  So will we REALLY see change?  Probably not.  But maybe this could inspire us to irradicate this bullshit party system and put some new laws in place that prevent celebreties from gaining power that they already basically have because of all their money. IDK this country is a mess run by all the same folx who put it there.  We need younger voices to teach these old people that the world isn't that black and white and you don't get to call the shots. Also while we are at it, REMOVE RELIGION, separation of what? I can't hear you over all the praying over a false god. 

I bought a drawing tablet... I shouldn't have. But I had to withdraw my 401k, lose it or transfer it for it to just sit there.  So I took it out and paid off my car loan. I email the bank to ask them if they mail my title. They say yes it should arrive in a few weeks. I get in my car, the check engine light is on.  A week after the payment clears, my car begins to not start again.  In the rain, in the dark, on the busy street, it doesn't matter.  And paid a huge chunk of my credit card bill. So like....Not like I wasn't an adult. I thought that maybe I could get into digital art. And all it has done is made me angry. Angry that the simple things that I want to exist, unless I pay a lot of money without trying it. Maybe that means the things I need are just too much and I am trying to make it too easy for myself. But I just want to make cool things that people like. Or be able to sell things and make money off of coolthings I make. Instead, I suck at everything and my...